Time to introduce you to our 5th housemate, Cynthia. Cynthia used to work in Hollywood, as an assistent to Tarantino during Kill Bill, till she couldn’t take the guy anymore and quit. Yet another story of some kind of burn-out and being in Santa Cruz to heal. Santa Cruz seems to be made up of healers or those in need of healing or both at the same time.
Cynthia lived in the house before, some years ago, so she and Leta used to be housemates. I didn’t meet Cynthia before she moved in, Leta assured me she’s great and that we’d all like her. Some days ago Cynthia cooked us a dinner and there was a chance to talk a bit more than the first exchanges of friendliness. Cynthia is into spiritual things big time. The red thread throughout her stories of spiritual quest and many years of following certain spiritual leaders, is the power of manifestation. Which boils down to the cultivation of will power and visualisation, i.e. of different levels of consciousness, to make things happen, real, material. Kind of like: all that is in the air can condense into the solid.
It’s not that i don’t believe in the power of will, of spirit, of intuition, of things that escape the radars of those senses which we have learned to develop better. But the form, content and extent it takes with Cynthia is sick, really. Which could just be a case of another weird inhabitant of Santa Cruz – the brand of this place functions as an open invitation… – only her stories suggest entire networks and powerful individuals involved. Like the story of one of her gurus who was received a phonecall from Clinton the evening before the Senate’s vote on impeachment. (“Bill, you’re not leaving me much of a margin to work here…”)
No doubt all of that (her fascination with power) is part of the conspiracy delirium of her universe – yet another vision of the elected few who hold the power – but i’m starting to see how important it could be to understand better how all this shit taps into existing power structures.
So i get into the fascination of investigation (in a positive mode, not only the “i have to write about this place or it makes me crazy”) and ask for more, like i ask her what people use manifestation for. The answer is immediate and clear: the top two among the people she knows is money and a partner for life. It disgusts me profoundly. And then there are all the stories i didn’t have to ask for (Cynthia is into monologues…), like the meeting with her boyfriend. The cold, instrumental dating. Not finding a connection at first but going back to the list of qualities she had written down (helps for the manifestation part) and concluding that he really is all she asked for. Laughing with the ironies of spiritual power – “tall” was one of the qualities in her (long) list, and Drew is giant. Then there is his previous life as a knight, when he was unhappy in an arranged marriage, found his true love but then she got killed by his wife. A trauma he is still working through. And Cynthia is keeping a watchful eye out for whomever might be the reincarnation of the wife, who might be seeking to kill her…
It’s all about creativity, it’s all about abundance. If you put your mind to it – and all that the mind is capable of – you can have what you want. American dream gone California nuts…